My Sis in law Leanne came over this morning with Lucas. She brought us some Krispy Creams which are OK for Silas to eat…nice. I was feeling all warm and welcoming and I made Lucas some lunch to have with Silas. I was giving Silas his usual probiotic chewable and asked if Lucas wanted one. He was chewing on it all funny and then the gagging started and then before I knew it, my highchair was covered in vomit. Ooops. I felt pretty bad. It was really gross. Leanne had thought she cleaned everything up and was sniffing around saying “I still smell it” and there was the bib sitting there still covered in puke. She almost had left it for me…ewww…I think I would have just stuck it outside. I don’t know if could have handled Lucas puke. Yucky. I felt pretty bad…poor Lucas and his incredible gag reflex.
Silas told on Lucas while he was here. Lucas stole Silas’ cookie so Silas came over to me and said “Lucas Lucas” and brought me over to Lucas and the cookie…too cute.
I love that my Lucas is getting more comfortable here. He used to cry a lot when he came over but now he seems really comfortable. He likes bouncing on my couch and I let him because he just looks so gosh darn cute. Him and Silas get along very well and it’s so cute to see Lucas catching up to his cousin in development. It’s so cool that once they all get the hang of walking, they’re pretty much the same. I remember when Silas just seemed so much older than Lucas. Especially when Lucas was only a few pounds. I’m so glad he’s catching up and now you can’t really tell they’re that different. They’re only 4 months apart!! Too bad they wont be in the same grade at school :(.
I’ve been thinking these past few days about hypnotherapy. Does it really work?? I know it’s such a taboo subject for Christians because it’s seen as “evil” or whatever because you’re not in control of your body like alcohol. I really don’t think that’s God’s main reason to say that alcoholism is bad, I think it’s the addiction and how it can hurt you and your relationships. But I think if I trusted the person, and the whole thing worked, I could really benefit from it. Anyone ever try it?? I was thinking of using it for emotional eating and for my weird issues like not cleaning.
I was thinking last night that I don’t actually mind doing chores. When I’m cleaning I never think “gosh I hate doing this”, ever! I know Leanne thinks that when she’s cleaning (but she’s good at forcing herself to do stuff she doesn’t wanna do) so obviously I really don’t mind cleaning. There’s something in my brain that makes me think that it’s not desirable to do even though I like it and I like a clean house and I like the feeling it gives you. So, what’s my issue? No idea. Perhaps I could change my subconscious and then I wouldn’t mind getting off my tooshie to do a little cleaning up!! The only part of cleaning I hate is putting away loose ends. Like a draw full of stuff that needs to do to a bunch of different places. I try and group things but there’s still things forgotten and I never finish because I just end up annoyed.
Anyway, let me know if any of you have tried hypnotherapy and if it works or not. I’m willing to give it a shot perhaps. If someone else is in the room with me…like Brent.
Ooooh – how exciting – his first tattle tale – can’t wait for him to start telling on my kids 🙂
I don’t think that all Christians think that hypnotherapy is “evil”. I do believe that some do, but a lot don’t. Question for you…why do you feel that you need to do so much “medicating” and “fixing yourself”. I think that with all these treatments that you’re coming up with you’re coming with you’re going to hurt yourself more than help yourself. I know that alternative medicines sound neat, and do think that they work, but you need to be careful. I think a brain is a very power tool, and you can make yourself believe that you there is something very wrong with you, only to find out later that you are a human being and there are many people who are very unmotivated and undisciplined people. If you feel that you have a problem with discipline, try to find how to work on that instead of paying a ton of money to someone. Depression very tough to deal with, I honestly think that is something that you should take care of first. just my 2 cents. I know that for the most part you have your mind made up and you will do what you want to do, I just wanted to let you know that you have a huge support group. Ask for help if you feel overwhelmed:)
I have been reading your blog for a while and I wanted to offer a little trick that has helped me to do things that I really don’t want to do. ( I agree it is mind over matter and think your stronger than you give yourself credit for)
I would suggest sectioning off your days in half hour intervals. For instance, give yourself 1/2 an hour of lazy time and then 1/2 an hour of cleaning time. Followed by 1/2 and hour playing with the boys. That way you know that you won’t be cleaning all day, you will be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, playing with the boys or laying on the couch will be the reward for a little cleaning. Also if you don’t get it all done you know that in a couple hours there will be another 1/2 an hour to just clean….
I think it is more about you setting your mind on something because you are more than able to, rather than thinking someone else can change your subconcious for you.
I agree with the above. I set my timer (yes, i know my house used to be really clean!) for 20 minutes and we do a “20 minute cleanup.” If at the end of 20 minutes we don’t want to keep going than that’s that, usually I keep going though, because getting started is the hard part.
Also, you’re not broken. I believe any alternative therapy or medicine should be used to enhance you, not change you. The sooner you accept yourself, the sooner everything else will fall into place.