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So, today I decided to try out this preschool thingy that was near our home.  It’s a free drop in for anyone and it’s kinda like pre-school but the parents stay.  I was really dissappointed in it actually.  The head lady did a lot of stuff wrong…like using force to get my kids to do what she wanted them to.  She was super anal about things and hardly gave the kids a chance to figure it out by themselves.  I didn’t like her at all.  I’m not really a person who disslikes people but…she aint doing it for me.  She’d bombard Silas when he was about to freak out and I kept telling her to watch out and whatnot…I kinda wish he would have hit her.  She just wasn’t listening to me.

Speaking of hitting.  Man it’s so bad right now…and I’m not helping.  I just get pushed to that point and I snap and yell at him and he’s traumatized and I feel guilty.  I’m not a person with a temper…at all so it drives me nuts that I lose it with Silas sometimes.  GRRRRRRRR.  Oh well, we all do it.  If an adult was hitting me so much I flip and punch their lights out.  I know it’s not the best for Silas but sometimes I think if people flip out on him every once in a while maybe he’d get it.  Or maybe that’s just an excuse I’m making so I don’t feel so bad.  I’m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired of being a punching bag.

Surprisingly enough, Isaac isn’t picking up on it.  He’s just picking up on crazy stuff like counting and whatnot.  He counted to 5 with me today but he’s just memorized it from hearing Silas do it all the time.  And I think he can recognize yellow which he called lellow like most kids do.  Silas had colors and shapes down at a super early age…I just don’t take the time with Ikey.  He wont be 30 and not know these things so whateva.

Anyway, there’s a few more free preschool programs we can check out.  I might just bring Silas and Ikey there on Tuesdays for gym day and they can run around like wild animals and they would have a blast.  The psycho teacher hopefully wont be too incredibly controlling.  She drove me nutso!!