I did it!! Today I actually told some stranger that they made me mad and boy did it feel good! I’m a TOTAL passive aggressive and I keep thinking I need to be more assertive. There’s only a few people in my life that I feel like I can give them the what for and it’s weird people. Like Kristy’s husband Brad, I could tell off in a flash, not a problem. Weird huh? Perhaps it’s because I know he’d do the same for me. I dunno. I’m even this way with my own husband. He ticks me off and in my mind I’m screaming and throwing things but outside I’m calm and collected and I don’t actually say anything. This is indeed a problem that I’m working on.
So here’s the story: This morning at 7:30 I’m falling asleep on the couch with Silas during the most wonderful cuddle (It’s sad when your kids don’t feel well but you sure get nice cuddles from it all) when there was a LOUD bang on the door. This man is at my door telling me I need to move my car because he needs to do some finishing work in my car port. I tell him not now because my baby is sleeping and then he offers to move it for me and of course I don’t let him. As if I’d let some stranger have the keys to my car, house, everything. So I close the door and I’m right pissed. Who knocks on a door so early? Who in the right mind would BANG on a door so early? If it’s that early then a light tap would be appropriate to see if anyone is awake. Not a smash that would give an unstable person a heart attack. I was mad that I didn’t give him the what for. I should have and I actually made up my mind to do it. I went and moved my car and on the way back I told him (still politely mind you) that next time he needs to give me a note the night before because we’re not up that early usually and I can’t have him bashing on my door at that time…etc. He kinda cowered away into the carport beside us. I felt good though. I was mad so I said something. I need to keep doing this or one day I’m going to freak out and burn something down.
Anyway, I’m off to nurse Ike in my bed and hopefully catch some Z’s. We had a bad beginning to the night last night and I have a fever so I should rest. Silas is still awake so I need to duct tape his mouth and tie him down until he falls asleep. Kidding. Perhaps I still need to be passive aggressive about THOSE feeling.