Beam Me Up

I apologize.  Some days I just don’t have much else to say.  All I want to do is whine and complain and scream about how much I miss my baby. I don’t want to bring people down.

I’ve been listening to this song a lot and I’m even learning to play it on the guitar.  It’s bringing me a lot of comfort, making me feel closer to Jonah.  Sometimes when I go to sleep I swear he’s with me, curled up in my chest and neck.  I sometimes listen to this song and just stare at his face.  My heart just fills with so much love.  I think I’ve fallen more in love with Jonah as time has passed.  Anyway, something that’s bringing me some healing and I think it would for anyone who has lost someone.

 

There’s a whole n’other conversation going on.
In a parralel universe.
Where nothig breaks and nothing hurts.
There’s a waltz playing frozen in time.
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet.
I look at you and you’re looking at me.

Could you beam me up?
Give me a minute,I don’t know what I’d say in it.
I’d probably just stare,
Happy just to be there holding your face.
Beam me up.
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter.
I think, a minutes enough.
Just beam me up.

Some black birds soaring in the sky.
Barely a breath I caught one last sight.
Tell me that was you, saying goodbye.
There are times I feel the shiver and cold.
It only happens when I’m on my own.
That’s how you tell me I’m not alone.

Could you beam me up?
Give me a minute,I don’t know what I’d say in it.
I’d probably just stare,
Happy just to be there holding your face.
Beam me up.
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter.
I think, a minutes enough.
Just beam me up.

In my head, I see your baby blues.
I hear your voice and I,
I break in two and now there’s one of me with you.

So when I need you can I send you a sign?
I’ll burn a candle and turn off the lights.
I’ll pick a star and watch you shine.

Could you beam me up?
Give me a minute,
I don’t know what I’d say in it.
I’d probably just stare,
Happy just to be there holding your face.
Beam me up.
Let me be lighter, tired of being a fighter.
I think, a minutes enough.
Just beam me up.
Beam me up.
Beam me up.
Could you beam me up?

6 comments

  1. When my first daughter was born I remember bring in the hospital with her, looking at her in the bassinet and thinking about how much my arms ached to hold her. I remember thinking about moms who didn’t have their babies to hold and how many more times worse that feeling must be.

    Blessings to you.

  2. tears. glad you’ve found a song like this to bring you comfort. Reading what you wrote in reply to Fiona gives me chills. It makes my heart ache and it’s not even my loss. 🙁

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