I really don’t feel like writing right now. My mind is going a million miles an hour about things I can’t really talk about on here. But I guess I can come up with a few things to say.
There’s a major weight lifted off my shoulders since I stopped the birth control. I feel again, I want to touch people again. I feel more endorphines again. There’s not a black cloud above my head. Yay, I’m so happy. I really can feel a difference. Woot.
Silas looks like he’s getting sick. Aside from his ear infections (I think he’s getting another one), he’s only been sick twice ever. Once in the hospital with RSV when he was 5 months and then last Christmas with a sinus infection. He’s got such a killer immune system, I don’t see why he’s got a peanut allergy.
I really hate this stupid allergy. You have to be so darn careful. Lots of people don’t understand the care you need to put into it. Peanuts are poison, they’re the criminal who wants to kidnap my son, they’re the lysol lurking under the cabinet that he shouldn’t drink (although, my sisters Jill and Juliet did some experimenting with that one once, no it doesn’t taste like juice and yes, you’ll puke instantly), they’re the pills inside the bottle with a child-safe lid. They’re poison. I wouldn’t let my son be in a house that cooks meth, that’s why peanuts don’t come into my house…or anything that COULD have peanuts in it. It’s hard for people without allergies to understand that. I’m hoping with all my heart that he’ll get tested for it and it wont be real. That he reacted to like…nothing. That it went away. Stupid peanuts. It breaks my heart. I do know how my SIL Leanne feels now. With having to push strangers hands away from her sensitive boy, having to ask people to wash their hands to hold him. Most people look at you like you’re a loon. Not many really understand.
Brently got a raise. He’ll be making an extra 500 bucks a month. WAY too exciting. We’re going to go over money stuff this weekend and hopefully I’ll get him on board with a good plan to rid ourselves from debt. Then after that we can work hard to pay down the principle on our mortgage. I’m going to get my minivan!! Ha ha…I never thought I’d write that with exclamtion marks after it.
I guess I did have a lot to say. I’m going to hop in the shower now while both boys are sleeping. I’m glad Silas is napping today. It looks like he’s starting to drop that nap. Too bad for him that Mommy will still make him have FOB time (flat on bed) every day until he’s in school full time 🙂 MUHAHAHA
OOPS I forgot to do my weight loss Wednesday update. Things are going well, I’ve lost a couple pounds and aside from my husband Sabotaging me last night with a Mars bar and Silas demanding that I share just one more melted cheese wrap with him this after noon, I’ve been doing good! I’ll try and make sure to get those photos up tonight!