Autism is a funny thing. One day things are just fine, they’re happy and learning and fun. The next day can be totally different, you’re considering finding an medevil blacksmith for some body armour and then calling up a priest to perform and exorcism.
It’s funny, since I’ve been twittering I’ve found this network of parents of kids with autism. One just twittered “Serenity Now….Serenity Now……Serenity Now” and it made me cry. It’s just nice to know I’m not alone. Even if it’s just words on the screen, it’s nice to know I’m not the only one pulling my hair out today.
I dunno what does it. I dunno what sparks a bad day. I guess it could be a number of things. Sometimes one little bad situation can ruin Silas’ entire day, sometimes the same situation can be easily brushed off and we move on.
Usually when he’s grouchy I can’t help but get a little grouchy and then we get grouchy back and forth and then I end up raising my voice because he’s not easily complying with things that he normally complies with and then it just escalates. It’s dumb. So I guess part of it is my fault, I guess well all have our breaking points.
I’m not doing a very good job focussing on my blog today. I’m too sad. crying feels good though. Well…there’s always tomorrow.