I’m not sure if I just really mainly dis-like the newborn stage or if it’s just hormones. I was thinking it took me a long time to love my child but I kind of don’t feel warm towards anyone I’ve noticed. I think I’m just dealing with hormones. I hate this though, I hate feeling this way. I’m a long time sufferer of depression so I hate the feelings of it. Not that I’m really depressed or anything, I’m just feeling off and I really really hate it. I’m a person who doesn’t ever get PMS or anything like that so it’s hard for me to accept hormonal feelings. I really can’t complain though, I don’t feel THAT terrible. My little Isaac is a dream baby, he only woke up once again last night and he only really cries when I change his bum after waking him up. He’s wonderful and I feel healthy and well rested already.
I’m really tired of Silas being a pain in the arse when there’s anyone else in the house. He does it with Brent too, he’s been a total freak all morning. He just tantrums of the littlest things. I don’t know what to do about it. I almost think we’ll just have to wait until we can communicate better. Usually he’s mad because he’s tired or hungry. He knows how to ask for food but he just wont, how do I teach him to use his words? He’s got such a short temper!!
Anyway, I’m just fixing lunch for Brent and I and it’s done so I’m going to eat now. Hungry!!