I can’t believe last night actually ended and it’s morning now. There was a time where I thought I would be stuck in it forever. Brent and I were both a little wired when we got to bed. Perhaps it was a mixture of the Jello I had made and the whole buying a house thing. I went to bed sad because I saw a little red line of a stretch mark on my tummy. I know tons of people get them but I don’t want to be one of those people. Everything else is covered in them, I thought my tummy would be salvaged. I need a plastic surgeon. ANYWAY, so I finally fall asleep around 11:30 and then Silas wakes up around 12:00 or 12:30 and he’s a mess. He screamed so stinking hard!! When I finally had him calm, I was wired again. When I would finally drift off, he wasn’t calm anymore. He kept waking up and making noise and I’d go in his room and he’d be wide awake. He was making a valiant effort to fall asleep though, he really was trying. Poor kid. At 2am I knew I could give him another dose of Mortin and that did the trick. I wish something would have done the trick for me. I couldn’t sleep. The baby was psycho active and on my bladder CONSTANTLY! I peed like every 5 minutes. Brent did such a good job at not snoring until about 3:00 so I booted him to the couch and then fell asleep rather quickly. Man, usually I’m good at calming myself and not letting myself think about stressful things but I just couldn’t do it last night. ARRGH! Too much on my mind including buying a house, wondering if our realtor is right for us, having a new baby, babysitting for Silas while the new baby in en route to being born, my lovely 24 year old stomach being ripped apart by red marks, peeing peeing peeing. Anyway, it was a dreadful night and now I get to have a nap so I’m happy. I just need some lunch first. Silas didn’t wake up until about 7:45 which was nice for me. This is one of those mornings where I just need my mommy.
Meeting with Mr. Realtor was fun yesterday. My back felt like it was going to die from sitting around our table for so long but I got through it. He seems like a pretty cool guy, definitely not a weasel. He seemed pretty honest and straight-forward. I like that. Now we start the hunt. I hope we can get something to move into by the end of June, perhaps you prayers could send one up for that for us. Goodness there’s a lot going on in my life right now, this is crazy! I know I am going to lose my mind during all of this. Post pregnancy hormones will get the best of me for about a week and hopefully by then I’ll be fine. Perhaps I’ll fall quickly in love with little Chim Chim and be all blissful like mothers of new babies should be, ya right! We’ll try for it though, I’m anticipating loving him a lot, I know I get to love someone as much as I love Silas, it just might take a little while.