Last night I had the shock of my life. I cooked supper and threw some peanut sauce on our stir fry without thinking. I thought about it for a second and then thought it should be ok for Silas to have a little this time. I’ve been avoiding peanuts because there’s so many allergies in our family. At the last second I decided to rinse Silas’ stuff off a bit just to lessen the exposure for him. A few moments of eating and he was bright red around his mouth and he was scratching at his neck. I was on hold with the BC nurse line for what seemed hours, because his lips were starting to swell we needed to go to the ER so off we went. By the time we got checked out he only had a few hives left on his tummy and neck. Doc said go home, give him some Benadryl and go to our doctor.
This morning we were able to get in to see our doc right away. He prescribed us and epipen and voila, our lives are drastically changed. We see an allergist soon, I don’t know when yet. I’m taking him to a natureopath asap no matter the cost. I’ll go into debt for him. I trust what they do with allergies.
For those of you who don’t know, because Silas had one reaction he could now be completely sensitized to peanuts and the next time he could go into anaphalktic shock and die. It’s SO serious.
I write this through tears, my heart is shattering over and over and over again. I hate what this means. Not only does my poor boy have to miss out on certain things, it inconveniences everyone around him. No more eating out, no peanuts around him anywhere. I’m scared of the world now. Scared someone will forget, scared people wont understand and be reckless with him. I don’t trust anyone anywhere. I’m scared to be on an airplane, scared to take him to the mall. I suddenly have a new enemy.
I’m terrified right now, I feel like throwing up. I’ve felt I’ve done my best to avoid this but genetics play a massive roll in this. I’m praying so hard for God to take this away. I’m mad that my child is in danger because of some stupid nut. I’m mad that it’s even allowed to be in food with so many children having to be alienated from the world because of it. My husband is on his way home, I hardly feel like I can function right now. I need to nurse my poor Isaac now. Speaking of which, Dr Harder said that the folds under his eyes mean allergies too. I remember Silas having these folds as well. Great.
Just so you know, from now on if anyone brings anything that’s even touched a peanut near my son I’m going to go apeshit so don’t push it.