Every time I sit down here I draw a blank about what I had been planning to write about so I just blab and blab and blab with no direction. I wish I could remember because I’m not finding anything to blab about either. Hmmmmmm. Ikey’s nursing wacky again (I just remembered what I was… Continue reading Sometimes I Don’t Feel Like Making A Title.
Category: parenting
Depressed
A year ago I was feeling so great. Feeling like I wouldn’t ever get hit by the depression bug ever again, feeling like I’d always stay skinny and that my passion for eating healthy would stay with me. I would say that it’s easy to not emotional eat, it’s easy to stay happy. I hate… Continue reading Depressed
Shattering Into Pieces
Last night I had the shock of my life. I cooked supper and threw some peanut sauce on our stir fry without thinking. I thought about it for a second and then thought it should be ok for Silas to have a little this time. I’ve been avoiding peanuts because there’s so many allergies in… Continue reading Shattering Into Pieces
Videos!!
My sister Jennie was able to capture some wonderful videos of my psycho child Silas this Sunday. This first one is of Silas singing his good morning song which is the same tune as “Happy Birthday”. We had just sung Happy Birthday to my niece Ali so Silas decided to continue singing for her. This… Continue reading Videos!!
I Don’t Wanna Be a Mommy Today.
I hate mess but I can’t stop creating it, it’s driving me crazy. My brain gets fuzzy and things are so off, when my world isn’t in order. But I can never actually seem to create order. Once I get everything back in place I forget to keep it that way. I leave coffee cups… Continue reading I Don’t Wanna Be a Mommy Today.
I Love Silas
Oh my darling Silas, he’s growing farther and farther away from my womb. It’s a strange feeling to see him becoming his own person. I delight in watching him grow and change and learn. I’m really seeing how much he isn’t my own but he’s in fact his own. What a blessing it is to… Continue reading I Love Silas
The Results Are In And….
… the lactation consultant had no idea what to say other than I shouldn’t feed him longer than 30 minutes because it’ll just keep my milk supply up high and he wont be getting much after that anyway. She was nice though and Ikey thought that she was funny. This week I chart chart chart… Continue reading The Results Are In And….
Pent Up
The past few days I’ve been feeling kind of pent up. It’s a weird feeling, like I wanted to freak out all over the place. I eventually gave into last night and just got really hyper…manic much?? *sigh* it was another one of those flashback thingies I’ve been getting, almost like that part of my… Continue reading Pent Up
I Should Be Cleaning and Not Writing So Much!!
Holy cow it’s 3:30 and I haven’t blogged. I was letting Ikey slurp away at my bossoms while talking for hours on the phone with Jill. We hadn’t had a good, long phone call in a while. It was much needed. Ikey sucked for over an hour, but there wasn’t much milk. He hardly ate… Continue reading I Should Be Cleaning and Not Writing So Much!!
Happy Birthday Isaac!!
Ikey is three months old today. Man I wish I had a birthday every month. That’d be so cool. So now I guess I fill you in on all things Ikey. Right now he’s sitting in his bouncy chair in a stripped onsie that his cousin Cornelius wore 10 years ago. The bouncy chair almost… Continue reading Happy Birthday Isaac!!
My Little Problem
I have this little problem that becomes a really big problem in certain situations. The formal name for it is adult ADD but I don’t like using it. Whenever I talk about having ADD everyone gets quiet. Family members especially. No I haven’t been formerly diagnosed with ADD. My counselor and I came to that… Continue reading My Little Problem
I’m Famous??
The other day I gathered my courage and stepped on the scale. I haven’t been a good eater lately I must confess. When there’s this much chaos in my life I have a hard time staying controlled in all areas. So I’ve been eating poorly. I was very surprised when I stepped on the scale… Continue reading I’m Famous??
Mung
I have a sensory experience that I’ve set up for you all. This requires no tools and you’ll actually get to SMELL Isaac. Who’s excited? Let’s begin: take a finger and insert it into your belly button, now move it around and create some friction for some heat. Do this for about and minute and… Continue reading Mung
Who Are You People?
I love 2″ faux wood blinds, they’re beautiful. They’re nestled perfectly into my windows now, blocking out the sun and the people who’ve been spying on me while I’ve been nursing these past 20 days. Issac is happily munching on my right boob and I have a little bowl of Oreo ice cream that I’m… Continue reading Who Are You People?
Guilt
Why does being a mother involve guilt? Is it the guilt that drives us or the love? There’s nothing worse than non parents pointing out your faults as a parent. I don’t feel horribly guilty. My kids are going to have a way less stressful childhood than mine so I know they’re ok. Hopefully they… Continue reading Guilt